It's a new record!

2 posts in too days! yay!! well not really a record at all... When I first started this I posted like 2 times a day..lol Then i realized i'm not quite as interesting as I had thought....lol Well the last few days have been pretty neat over all. The meeting yesterday went well. I met several very nice people and felt a lot more at home than I usually do in these situations... It would seem that I would get used to it as often as I force myself to do things thats out of my comfort zone; but no I still get really nervous around groups of new people. Way back when I had the old "act" that I had down pat and it was great to hide behind..... back then people would never get to know me no matter how long they tried. Now days I'm making friends as me and I get a lot of what if they don't like me running through my head..... In the old days I just wrote it off as "You don't want anyone liking you.. its easier for you and them...." I had a few solid friends and most of them had a much better grasp on who I was.. they knew I had the act and pretty well expected it from me.

I don't think that will be a problem long in this group. They are very friendly and acutely kinda similar to me. In most things I've been involved in that are trans related I've found very few people who are like me... I was beginning to think I was something else all together.. some thing new.. only based on the fact that my thought and feelings were so different from a lot of the people I meet in "the community" . Honestly looking at it now thats kind of dumb of me because I've found that very few people think the way I do regardless of there situation. It doesn't help any it just makes discussing things terribly difficult.

I'm looking forward to having the weekend off, first one in awhile and on top of it I have no plans at all (other than my Sunday game) Maybe I can drum up some fun : )

I have been hard at work on my website. ... www.littlerevolutions.com it has a whole lot of nothing on it just yet as the game system I'm building is barely off the launch pad. I decided to take all of these ideas I've had and do something with them. I'm shooting for having a fully playable game free (p'n'p) online but its going to require a lot of work some suggestions ,artist and playtesters to do it.. so if any of you know some let me know... : ) (and yes I realize 80% of the people who read this are gamers)