UTENA!!!

Well today turned out ok despite everything... (due to work I'm going to miss my north game this week and I didn't get to meet up with Colleen and Jennifer) but today at work I searched U tube and found that they host a copy of (in my opinion) the greatest anime music video ever. As everyone prolly knows I'm a HUGE (understament) fan of Revolutionary Girl Utena and I do really like Evanescence... Well Utena is a show that has many many layers to it so its not often to find a song that fits perfectly on of the primary themes.... I know Bring me to Life was very over played but watch this and listen to the lyrics and you'll have an idea of what I see in this show......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8l0OPyo3nw



oh btw the reason I was on U tube is because the anime website from below is down yet again and I was looking for Kyo Kara Maoh...

Well all enjoy and remember ...... For the revolution of the world!!!

one down; one up.

What a week so far..... right after I posted my last post the website that has Kyo Kara Maoh went down..: ( but its back up now: ) Yesterday I went to a group meeting at Michele's It was pretty informative and I met a few neat people.... I don't know why but in my day to day life I'm not afraid of anything... I go out, I interact with people and not only do I feel comfortable I feel confident.... I know thats all well and good but when I go to groups involving trans people or go to sessions with therapists I get all nervous and weird..... It is so unlike me to be that way and I have a hard time dealing with it...... everyone prolly thinks I'm a neurotic mess... which if this was 2 years ago they would be right but its not.... It seems that its only in therapeutic groups too... weird..... I was hoping to run into Colleen there but she was busy or something. Thats ok though I met a friend of hers named Jenn (I think....geez I hate my memory) She was very nice and she invited me to go out with her and some of her freinds no saturday.... at the moment it may be a no go: ( as I have to work the late shift.... well maybe Billy will swap with me.. I hope so, I really need to get out... this being a shut in is starting to get to me..... Its not voluntary mind you but the working second shift thats killing me..... I even got a hold of an old friend Curtis Paul I want to go hang out but he's an early first shifter so its going to tough to even get to do that: (

oh well you take the good with the bad and all that jazz.......

AAAHHHHH!

Hi all I'm just yelling because they are tearing my store apart..... (as most of you know I work at sprint PCS on the westside of town) Well our little store has grown so much that we are now one of the busiest stores in Indy (Go us!) well they realized that our store was also one of the smallest stores.... So they bought the old Blimpy that was next to us and they are remodeling us in to the largest format store they have... Pretty soon we'll be the flagship store! Thats all well and good but at the moment they have our store completely torn apart and my inventory room (pretty much where I live) is about the size of a postage stamp........ Well now that's out of my system .... rant#2....My luck has been the absolutely the worst this last week. At my Wednesday game I rolled my dice like 75 times and only succeeded maybe 5 times ... Then at the rippers game I made one of ten.... Then today while getting out of my car I spilled my large coke (full ...btw) in the drivers seat...: ( Well at least Its got to get better :) ...

The good news is that Billy (aka William, aka snowball, aka williamshire) sent me a link to a site where you can watch anime online and even better the show that I saw at Acen (anime central) last year is on there.... Its called Kyo Kara Maoh (the english is God save our king) Its a Shonen-ai series (the first I've ever gotten into as a mater of fact) but it is very funny and so cute some times its almost too hard to stand ....lol This boy Yuuri get pulled into a fantasy world where he's supposed to be the new king...(seen it a million times before...right?) well in the first few episodes you see this world is a little different; such as Yuuri get angry and slaps Wolfrum (the cutest character ever) against his left cheek ... well normally thats the beginning of a fight here well in this other world its a proposal : ) So now Wolfrum and Yuuri are engaged! well see the rest yourself it is really good.... as soon as I get the money together I'm going buy the dvd's for it so I can watch on a normal tv.....

http://www.keiichianimeforever.com/anime/onlineanime/index.html

In other good news my brother mike gave me a stuft elephant yesterday... he's green and really cute. He has big ears like chu-chu from Revolutionary Girl Utena so I put a hoop earring in his ear and I ended up naming him Melbatoast.... Carries been acting jealous of Melbatoast....lol I'll have to get a picture of him up soon : )

What a weekend! yay!

Wow where to start..... John and Christy bought the new Tenchi-Muyo series (Ryo-ohki) its the continuation of the original OVA series from back in tea early 90's.. I have been waiting on this for 10 years..... and I must say it is the greatest Tenchi since the original series... they did really well to keep to the feel of the original. I can't wait to see the next disc! Then we went out on Saturday and had Pizza king and Icecream!!!! you all know how addicted to icecream I am...... I didn't think pizza king would be that great but Christy and Carrie wanted to go... but it was a lot of fun.... they had a nintendo 64's built into the table (we played Mario Party 2, which is cool cause it always make me think of Tina (miss you TT) ) and the pizza was a lot better than I thought it would be.. it was really good. Then we went to the art theater her on tea southside and watched the original Little Shop of Horrors on the big screen... It was brilliant on the big screen. If you haven't seen it its an early Corman film.... that has the debut of Jack Nicholson.... if you watch it you'll know why Jackie is type cast as a weirdo. I do warn you you have to take into consideration when it was made (1960's) and that it was shot in 48 hours..... but for what they had it was brilliant. The best part of it is tea writing. The dialog tells you exactly who people are.... from russian accents to the the ditziest girl to ever be on film....

On top of that I started playing a new online game (It's free) Its anime based and it about the cutest thing I've ever seen... You get gold for talking on forums, chatting, playing games and stuff.... then you can buy stuff for your house and cute outfits.... Its called Gaia Online .....
http://www.gaiaonline.com

If anyone joins my character is Shoko Futagami.. make sure to add me as a friend.. k?

It's a new record!

2 posts in too days! yay!! well not really a record at all... When I first started this I posted like 2 times a day..lol Then i realized i'm not quite as interesting as I had thought....lol Well the last few days have been pretty neat over all. The meeting yesterday went well. I met several very nice people and felt a lot more at home than I usually do in these situations... It would seem that I would get used to it as often as I force myself to do things thats out of my comfort zone; but no I still get really nervous around groups of new people. Way back when I had the old "act" that I had down pat and it was great to hide behind..... back then people would never get to know me no matter how long they tried. Now days I'm making friends as me and I get a lot of what if they don't like me running through my head..... In the old days I just wrote it off as "You don't want anyone liking you.. its easier for you and them...." I had a few solid friends and most of them had a much better grasp on who I was.. they knew I had the act and pretty well expected it from me.

I don't think that will be a problem long in this group. They are very friendly and acutely kinda similar to me. In most things I've been involved in that are trans related I've found very few people who are like me... I was beginning to think I was something else all together.. some thing new.. only based on the fact that my thought and feelings were so different from a lot of the people I meet in "the community" . Honestly looking at it now thats kind of dumb of me because I've found that very few people think the way I do regardless of there situation. It doesn't help any it just makes discussing things terribly difficult.

I'm looking forward to having the weekend off, first one in awhile and on top of it I have no plans at all (other than my Sunday game) Maybe I can drum up some fun : )

I have been hard at work on my website. ... www.littlerevolutions.com it has a whole lot of nothing on it just yet as the game system I'm building is barely off the launch pad. I decided to take all of these ideas I've had and do something with them. I'm shooting for having a fully playable game free (p'n'p) online but its going to require a lot of work some suggestions ,artist and playtesters to do it.. so if any of you know some let me know... : ) (and yes I realize 80% of the people who read this are gamers)

The speed of progress...

Hi all believe it or not I've been working on Rose's quite a bit the last few days.. I've been trying to figure out how to update my look. I have found an ultra cute skin on a website but I'm waiting for the owner to let me know if I can use it.... Check out her site its has some really neat stuff....
http://www.eyeforbeauty.com/

Other than that I'm working an early day at work so Billy could have the day off.... Lets just say he has a doctors appointment tomorrow and in interest of good taste I'm not going to say what for..... It works out though Michele (my new therapist) has a group meeting tonight that I will be able to attend..... I'm not sure if I should be excited (I love meeting new people) or nervous (I hate meeting new people...lol) I'm sure it will go fine.

Ok over the last week and a half I've been searching.... For a song.... by an unknown musician..( I was flipping through the channels and heard a rap/hip-hop song and had to stop and go WOW that's pretty awesome....) This is amazing because I'm not much into rap but every once in awhile I'll hear something and be unable to deny that this person has serious skill...... Well I knew a few of the lyrics and that was it... not to mention the main lyric I knew was "So High" ... need less to say when you search for any music with high in the title on line to get a lot of pot songs...... So that didn't work.... I asked a few of my friends more familiar with hip-hop and none of them could tell me. Then last week I'm at work and it come on the instore radio. So the next time I hear it I ask my friend Alyssa . Well wouldn't you know it the song is done by not only a well known rapper but happens to be Kanye West (who if you didn't know is the current laughing stock of rap for claiming if they rewrote the bible today he would be in it...lol) I sure can pick em. Oh well I borrowed Alyssa's copy of his newest CD and I acutely like about 3/4 of the songs on it. Considering how picky I am that pretty good.


Well I've blathered on long enough: ) Later all ' )

New beginnings?

Today I finally tried a new therapist.... Michele O'Mara. She's really nice. I do feel more comfortable with her.. Which is nice. I'll prolly start going to her. I do feel bad about Dr. Davis though... He was a fairly nice guy. I just didn't agree with his regimen. (Yes I told him so) Michele doesn't do hormones but has a endo that she sends people to. I need to contact them and see if they can have the Davis Clinic ship over my records. (Michele (understandably) can't write scripts for brand new patients) SO I have to convince Dr Davis to write a letter of recommendation or go with out (yikes!) for awhile.... I might go to Dr. Davis again and just say hey I have an endo that I want to see and I need a referral. Just how do I do it with out sounding like I think He doesn't know what he's doing????